Teru no uta

A splendid song performed by AOI TESHIMA, as expected from studio ghibli’s movie soundtrack. Geezz…i just couldnt describe how much i love their works. Well, i should at least describe their movies in some other times, right now i want to focus on just this song.

The first time i heard this beautiful song, i was stunned for quite a while. A warm feeling quickly wrap my soul and give my mind a pair of wings. It was just as if the soul of the world itself appears and passes by in front of you elegantly, that nothing else you would or could care about. Man, really.  Oh well, i purposely spend some time to edit the translation i’ve gotten in internet. There are at least 3 translations, but i just couldnt helped to give amendment here and there, based on my JLPT 3 level =p I also know that some words are not supposed to be there, but i like to leave it there, as the whole meaning would be easier to be understood.

So here it is, Teru no Uta (Teru’s song, Teru is the protagonist character in movie The Tales of EarthSea, Gedo Senki ).

 

” Teru no Uta “

Gedo Senki ( The Tales of the EarthSea) OST

 

Yuuyami semaru kumo no ue        Far, far above the clouds, against the setting sun

itsumo ichiwa de tonde iru           Always alone, A falcon flies soaring in the sky
Taka wa kitto kanashikarou          I hear his lonely cry, how sad he must be

Oto mo todaeta kaze no naka        Riding the silent wind, a falcon flies alone

sora wo tsukanda sono tsubasa   Reaching out with his wings, he grasps the empty sky         

Yasumeru koto wa dekinakute       Riding the silent wind, never can he rest

 

Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou          What is this within my heart, that no one can ever know 

taka no youna kono kokoro           A heart that is just like the falcon
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou          What is this within my heart, that no one can ever know

 

sora wo mauyona kanashisa wo   A sadness that is just like the whirling  sky

Ame no sobo furu iwakege ni         At a rock shadow in drizzling rain

itsumo chiisaku saite iru              Always in modestly, a small flower blooms
Hana wa kitto setsunakarou        I hear her lonely cry, how mournful she must be
Iro mo kasunda ame no naka      With the dim colour luminescing in the rain

usumomo iro no hanabira wo     The flower’s  pink petal fading faintly 

Medete kureru te mo nakute         she receives  no one touch and no one love

 

Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou          What is this within my heart, that no one can ever know

hana no youna kono kokoro          A heart that is just like the flower
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou          What is this within my heart, that no one can ever know

ame ni utareru setsuna sa wo       A heartache that is just like the crying rain   

 

Hitokage taeta no no michi wo      I  walk along in deserted country roads

watashi to tomo ni ayunderu        Walking  side by side, you are always with me
Anata mo kitto samishikarou        I can feel your loneliness, how lonely you must be
Mushi no sasayaku kusahara wo  Crickets are whispering in the grassy fields

tomo ni michiyuku hito dakedo     Walking side by side, you walk the path with me
Taete mono iu koto mo naku          But you never say a word, never do you speak 

Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou           What it is within my heart, that no one can ever know

hitori michiyuku kono kokoro        A heart that walks  the path alone
Kokoro wo nani ni tatoeyou          What it is within my heart, that no one can ever know

hitori bocchi no samishisa wo     the sorrow of one who is eternally alone

“It’s Been A While” Thought

I have this kind of thought whenever i feel my mind has finally come back to where it should belong. At this time, my reality becomes so close as my nose and my dreams become so far away as the next public holiday. Well, it’s not something that i should complain about, so i dont hate it that much.

The present me, as always she is, still a clumsy headed girl with a scoop of persistance and ignorance hiding behind her naivety.  Everyday she wakes up when the sun has just started to peak the world. Then within the next 30 minutes, she will do her routines before she steps out from the door to go for work. Walking toward and waiting at the bus stop. And when the bus comes, she will tap her EZ-link, quickly go to upstairs (somehow, she always purposely rides double decker bus), find an empty seat on the first or second row and finally sit at the corner. She likes the corner, coz she is AB blooded type anyway. Subsequently she will plug in her MP3 player and in the next few minutes, it wil be her most favourite time of the day : looking at people out there, watching them regularly doing their activities (like herself), wondering about their life (and her own life), realizing that human’s life is the greatest miracle on the world and at the same time the worst curse for the earth.

Sometimes she is sighing a few times. But quickly will find a relief smile to erase them away. After all, her current life is completely different from what it should be. At least from what she has been imagining exactly up until one month ago. Back then, she is quite sure that her life will be all brightly new. Living at new place. Meeting new friend. Immersing in new environment. Most of them are blond’s who like to go for party, drinking, having fun, just to get to know each other.  She will find it quite a struggle to get along with them, but she will manage it ’somehow’. Besides she will quickly take a liking to her new life as she believes it is an obvious path heading toward her dream. Ah, the word D-R-E-A-M definitely is too bright for her. Too bright that it can blind her completely.

Nonetheless, that life did not happen. She snapped it away at just one night. A night before the day she was supposed to go to her new place. She crumbled it with her doubts, her pride, her impulsiveness, her embarassment of knowing that there were something wrong, so much wrong, with her as an individual at that moment. And there it was, she eventually decided not to go. Not for someone else, but for the sake of herself. It was a hard decission. Even until now she found this dream sometimes is tempting her to take a regret for what she had decided. Well, what comes around, then let it be come around. She’s still not sure about the reason. She feels she just had to do it that way. She is not happy with it, but she is also not unsatisfied. After all, the present her is not that bad at all. And she doesnt want to bother herself to keep thinking about the past. So be it.

I have this kind of thought whenever my soul has finally made a return to where it should belong. At this time, my reality is gentle enough to reach out his hand embracing my dreams warmly. I feel at ease and therefore at peace. I really dont hate it that much anyway.

 

                            sunset in singapore                                     

    sunset in budapest

I guess The sunset in singapore is as beautiful as the sunset in Europe…after all they are the same sun =)

The Super Cool Rides

I suddenly came up with the following list of vehicles that i die-die want to ride. Why ? I’m not sure. Maybe because every heroine always has their tools or vehicles from which it amplifying their degree of coolness or something (arrgh i’m talking about non-sense again =p  ). So here they are…. 

 

1. Neko bus (cat bus)

Appears on tonari no totoro movie, the cool features about this bus are : non-stop direct travel to your destination ; jump from one tree to another tree as its route (buuu too bad for those regions where the people cut down their trees) ; automatic door with funny voice, fluffy and soft chair made from cat fur ( wait, eventhough it’s a fur, they made it without killing any animals, because you see, basically the bus is cat =p ); and….the coolest one is a light beam comes out from its eyes !!!! yeah ligh-to bee-mu da !!! ride on babe!!!

 

2. Nausicaa glider

I know Nausicaa is a cool person (as much as i am =p) but her glider is a freaking AWESOME !!!!. Driven only by the wind you must have a great skills in order to be able to ride on it : predicting the wind direction ; estimating the wind speed ; sky manuever ; and not easy to catch a cold a.k.a masuk angin (huhu i lost this one ). I heard they make its prototype somewhere in japan. hohoho…this is gonna be my treasure hunting…..

 

3. Thousand Sunny go , straw hat pirates’s ship

Arrrggghhhh is’nt it mind-blowing ? hehehe…i told ya, Franky is a supaa genius. If i had a chance to ride on it..first i would definitely go to the crow’s nest on top of the ship, at which the gorgeous swordsman zoro spend most of his time exercising……(maybe there is  his after-used towel that i can steal…..hihihi….kyaaaaa *nose bleeding* ) kekekeke…..

 

4. Stardust Flying Ship

hehehe, i just want to meet captain shakespeare in person and ask him to teach me how to capture a thunder. I need it to destroy all the evils in this world =p Maybe i also could make a weapon like nami’s perfect climact tacto or something from it.

 

Oya, and all these rides are carbon-emission free =)

Saturday Nite

So,  I turn on again all the lamps that i can find in every corner of my room.

I play the music with the loudest volume i can get from my laptop.

Here i am, dealing with these never ending projects and school stuffs.

And I’m getting used to this loneliness anyway.

Today’s Remedy

It was 4.35pm. 

with all these exhaustions, fatigues and dullness, I just had enough energy to drag my feet back to hall…. 

A falcon, i ought to think, was flying gracefully above my head. It was so elegant, and breathtaking. Invurnerable and almighty. Beautiful and even more beautiful every second I follow where it goes.

Suddenly a smile just slipped out from my lips. Strangely enough, but even in your complete worn-out state, you still can find the beauty of life everywhere. You just had to have a tiny space called hope in your heart.

That was for today’s remedy. Thx God, You know me better than i do

Some words in “American Beauty”

Yup, it was late 3am in the morning when this movie prevented me to sleep. Hehe, iya iya. aku tahu…. film ini udah diproduksi dari jaman jebot (1999).Well, i’m not a movie addict after all, so excuse me here.

After all, i’m not gonna review the film though. Cuma ada beberapa scenes yang so called “it spoke to me directly” tentang sesuatu yang dari dasar hati i found it very interesting. Dan pengen aku share disini.

Ricky : i did see this homeless woman who froze to death once..just laying down on the sidewalk
             she looked realy sad….
             i got that homeless woman on videotape
Janie : why would you film that?
Ricky : because it was amazing
Janie  : what’s amazing about it ?
Ricky : when you see something like that it’s like God is looking right at you. Just for a second.
              and if you careful you can look right back.
Janie : and what do you see ?
Ricky : beauty
 

and then again, the next scene is also by ricky when he showed his favorite video to Janie. The video is about a plastic bag at the corner of a street. It was wandering around because of the wind. Yup, just that. He filmed it for its “spoken” beauty. (you should see the video, it really is). And he narrated the video….

It was one of those days. Where it’s a minute away from snowing. And there was this electricity in the air. You can almost hear it, right ?
And this bag was just…dancing. With me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it,….. for 15 minutes.
That’s the day i realized that there was this……entire life behind things. And this incredibly benevolent force..that wanted me to know that there was no reason to be afraid. EVER.

Video’s poor excuse i know,but it helps me remember. I need to remember.
Sometimes there’s so much….beauty..in the world. I feel like i cant take it.
And my heart is just going…cave in.

*sob sob..applause for Allan ball. his words really mean it !!*

 My last favorite scene is the ending of the movie : Lester (ayah janie) dibunuh oleh istrinya dengan cara ditembak di kepala. When ricky found his dead body in the kitchen, he saw right through  the man’s eyes. And the man was actually smiling. Wow. And then … blackflashes dari kehidupan masa lalu nya muncul satu persatu. A vast clouds appeared….Stunning Janie. Crying wife. And clouds again. 

I had always heard that your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isnt a second at all. it stretches on forever.
Like an ocean of time.

*huaaa…bravo allan ball again*

 Ok, you can say it, i always have an emotional feeling when it comes to how people interpret GOD through their own way. And death is just one of those ways. Sometimes I feel it so near to all of us. Like an imaginary friend who follows us in every our steps. Take a walk with us. Sitting on the bus beside us. Waiting for us. Smiling at us. Take a silent moment for a few second and and you will see him =)

In my imagination, this is how he (it would be creepy if “she”, i think) looks like :

~chihiro and no-face at one scene in spirited away movie~

Song of the wheel of life

Recently, Life has become too sinusoidal. Yes, too sinusoidal.

Hidup serasa berupa titian tali yang spacing knotnya telah menjadi konstanta bilangan. Aku kerap menghitung knot demi knot yang terlewati, mencoba me-reka panjang tali yang tersisa, yang aku tahu pasti tidak tak terhingga. Dan ini napas panjang ku yang kutarik dalam dalam ke sekian kalinya, untuk membunuh (lagi) keluhan hati yang sampai saat ini belum ada habisnya.

A normal white noise, a pain amplifier, which one should it be ?

Cinta tak pernah menunggu untuk datang bertamu. Karena ia tak perlu membuat janji dengan waktu. Maka ketika ia datang mengetuk pintumu, selalu siapkan hati untuk mendengar berita gembira atau tidak gembira. Jika itu membuatmu kecewa, menangislah jika perlu. Tapi, bersyukurlah, karena tangismu masih akan di nina bobokan malam, bulan dan bintang gemintangnya. Dan ini napas panjang ku yang kutarik dalam dalam ke sekian kalinya, untuk membunuh (lagi) kegalauan hati yang sampai saat ini belum ada habisnya.

Nevertheless if you take the root mean square, you may find a hidden sound of beauty.

Tapi lihat sekeliling teman, lihat jejak penat kakimu yang membawamu ke tempat berdirimu sekarang, begitu nuraniku selalu berkata. The wheel of life always carries different songs. You just have to hear it vividly and sing along. It takes a drop of tear sometimes, and hundred of laughters on the other. Dan ini napas panjang ku yang kutarik dalam dalam ke sekian kalinya, untuk kemudian kuberikan diriku sebuah senyuman.

The song of the wheel of life, The song of gratefulness i guess.

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